Get home from work eager to write for the new blog. That is this blog.
We work at a music school for mentally deranged students (don't be offended if you are one of them reading this now). I even mentioned today in the massive group lesson. “BLOG FEATURE ON THE WATSON WEBSITE NOW” but I doubt (and hope) they will not come seeking this out. This blog is for the REAL FANS, to whom I – the watson behind the music, am not a real person but some obscure internet artist. Because once you know someone as a person you can't really become fascinated with them in that same way. Or at least, the more you know them, the more you understand, the less fascinated you become.
So if you, as a fan, pour thru every word of every blog post (there are sure to be thousands), you will not have a real picture of me as a person. Not as much of an idea as if you had been in a room with me for even a two minute conversation. Don't you think? Because to be WITH someone is something entirely different than reading their words, even if their words are true and genuine and expressive. Because these words, as all art does, points to something beyond human, even as it is the most human thing. And I am interested in this. I am interested in Watson Moon the icon – the enterprise. To the cynical… the “brand.”
My real life relationships are just like yours. They are complex and they are for me to navigate. But the icon of Watson is for YOU. And I do believe in this ICON. I have the vision, though nobody else does yet. I have a vision of WATSON MOON. A vision you may witness, you may come to love. But not yet. For now there is no one, like I say. There is only people I know in my real life… who will read this and say “Oh that's Matt.” And though I love you all, I say this isn't for you. Because I'm speaking as Watson Moon. And you cannot understand Watson Moon as a fan does. It's like how I understand John Lennon or Kurt Cobain. Not really as a human… but as this… icon is the word I keep coming to.
Am I INSANE to cast myself in this life – to create this portrait then shove it into your brain. HELL YEA I'M INSANE. But if it doesn't work I'll just be a rambling mad psycho in Skid Row, my other comfort place. It's a win win. I gain it all or lose it all. Either way I live, either way I die. So I offer you this WATSON MOON. I can't help but be him… but he is not quite me… because he isn't flesh and blood. He's like the idea of me to someone who's never met me. A sketch of my personality. An impression. Does that make sense??? That's what Watson Moon is.
And it's just in the very very initial stages of being formed. Like I said, this is something that only I am harboring. So if anyone I know were to read this… I sound literally insane. But to you fan who read it down the line, you understand.
Anyway, grappling with my public persona. Everyone must do it in this day and age.
It'd be great to write in this blog OFTEN. i think it'd be fun. And I hope many many people will read it. But how do I get them over here to read it??? And how to get them to the music??? These are the questions I'm obsessed with every day. With a student – thinking about how to get the music heard. With my doctor. “You need surgery” he says. “Nah I need success w/ my music” I say. I hope I never relax with it either!! Cuz we MUST get big. There is simply no other option (unless I picture my magical version of skid row, my insane American fantasy I'll tell you all about later).
BTW i ain't going back and making ANY edits to this shiz so it's gonna come off raw af. i thought that was the point of BLOGS?!! it's pure unfiltered… many not the more refined or concise but i mean whatevz. (its now 9:18 so it took me 18 mins to write all that. is that fast or slow??)
MUCH LOVE AND OK GOODBYE,
WATSON